HASHEM is my shepherd, I shall not lack. In lush meadows He lays me down, beside the tranquil waters He leads me. Psalms 23:1-2
This psalms of David’s has kindled a spark of hop in countless human hearts throughout the ages. David teaches us how to accept the “unacceptable” situations. There are times when we must struggle mightily against adversity and carry on the battle even agains superior forces. But……there is also time for surrender, a time to realize that the fight is futile and that we must accept our lot in life, however disappointing it may be.
Over the years there have been many people come and go in my life. After all, that is life, right? I’ve had to stay good bye to so many people that I love and care for. I’ve been thinking a lot about my mom lately and I just needed to share with you all what is in my heart. My mother was a kind gentle woman, that is, until you did something to one of her kids. Well, I’m not sure I was loved as my brothers and sister was. You see, when my mom died she told my grandmother to take care of her kids, she named each of them one by one. I was not one of them. I asked my grandmother why didn’t my mother name me? Her answer to me was she just forgot…..how does a mother “just forget” one of her own kids.
I’ve been looking, all my life for someone to replace to “love” that mother gives to her children. When is it ok to “accept” that which you can not change? And more to the point, how do you accept it?
Monthly Archives: June 2016
Today You Become A Nation….
I am always looking for things to study and help me grow as a Jew. It has been over two months since my conversion. I’ve felt somewhat lost and empty. You see, before, all my time was spent in learning and knowing how to live my new life. Now that I have completed the lessons, I did not know what to do with all the free time I have on my hands. Someone once said to me, “you will never stop learning”. Yes, I know this but what to study??????
Before, I had a set group of lessons each day now I can study as I please and I often don’t know what to study. My husband ask me, what are you passionate about? I said, living with chased (kindness). I strive never to commit a chillul like HaShem. I find it hard to keep my morning prayers full of kavannah. I’ve found that lessons like this help me with my focus and study. I hope you will enjoy it.
The Joys Of Home 