Why it is so hard for you to understand………

I have lots of friends on my FB page that post things that I disagree with, often I find myself at a lost to know what to do about the feeling I have with the post, comment, or picture made them. Here is someone that has articulated my deepest feelings these past few days.  
As a black women, I know the TRUTH of what Tikvah Nidia Womack is saying in this post. When I was in the process of converting to Judaism, I was asked how I would deal with being hated? My response was simple, what exactly in my world would change? I am the mother of two black boys and each day I watch the news I am in complete fear of what they are facing out in the world. My son called me one day to tell me that the police pulled him over for running the stop sign. He said my son did what is called “a rabbit stop”. My son was very upset and ask the officer to give him his badge number. This put me in in mortar fear for his life. When he told me the police officer was gone I started to breath again. There are not many people who will understand why I stopped breathing at that moment. But when you see how easy it is for cops to shoot and kill black men, and prosecutors saying no charges will be filed, you lose sleep at night.  
I was asked by a dear “white” friend, when did it become legal to kill black people? I almost laughed at her question. I said, when did it become illegal? She looked puzzled. I told her the day we stop looking at each other as a “race” and see that we are all the same, will be the day KILLING will end.  
As a black Jewish woman, I know and fully understand hate. I live in it everyday of my life. When two woman go into labor, one white and the other black, they don’t feel the same joy. Soon after birth or the male child, the white woman is at peace, while the black women come to terms with the reality of having a male child. This child is born with 100 points less than his counterpart. He is black and therefore he is not as valued as the other. Old folks use to say “black peoples are born with bad credit, they must work to improve it, white people are born with top rate credit, they must work to make it bad”.   
Please don’t misunderstand my post. I am not one who cares if my friends are white or black, I love people. I’m saying I understand the post make by Tikvah. Life is very different for us.

Written by Tikvah Nadia Womack:

“To my black friends, my Jewish friends, my white friends, my ethnic friends, and multi-racial friends and all friends not covered under one of those descriptions. Please note I do not use Facebook often and I surely don’t use it as a platform, but I feel it is necessary today. Let me explain to you #blacklivesmatter from my perspective (and please note I do not speak for all black people). It means that I have to raise an adorable son with his hard working professional father and pray to G-d that I was able to teach him enough manners and common sense not to get gunned down or hurt because of the way he looks, walks, or talks. It means that I have to second guess whether I will allow my son to wear hoodies, not just so he doesn’t give off the wrong impression, but so he is not killed. It means I have to think about not just if the area he is going to is safe, but because of who he is, is it going to be safe, whether it is a different country or down the street. It means that while I was pregnant with him and before I knew I was having a son, no exaggeration, I cried! I cried because he is black and Jewish and I had no idea what his future would look like, but I knew from both ends there would be moments he wouldn’t be safe and I wouldn’t be there. Hear me, I said SAFE, not uncomfortable, not unhappy, and I didn’t use maybe; I said I KNEW he wouldn’t be SAFE! Can you imagine, have you seen my son…but I know it is true! I am writing this because I need you on some small level to hear my truth. You don’t have to agree with me, you don’t have to respond or like it, but it is my TRUTH and some of my friend’s truths. He cannot hide who he is, therefore maybe through my moments of speaking out when I can, I affect some thought, idea, or moment of potential change to try and protect him or at least through G-d’s help create an advocate or two for him. Again, please understand this is where we (again speaking for my truth) are in 2016. If you know history, you know why this truth might exist for me and maybe for others. If you deny the present, that’s fine, but you cannot erase truth. And yes, more than one truth can exist, for a while, but inevitably one truth is followed. So in this moment, I have to say I am upholding my truth, because I cannot allow others truths to dominate mine in exchange for worry and pain. R.I.P to ANYONE lost in violence, and may we all find some way towards peace while in search of truth.”




Well, we are at the end of our road…..we have our mikvah date.  10 days from today we will be Jews!  Wow, it is almost unreal to even say that after so many years of studying, yawning, and praying.  We made it and it has all been worth all the heartache and tears.  Hours of studying, memorizing, and droughts.  I am so thankful to Hashem for having the love that He has for me.  

No one can take this away from me, no one can ever make me dought what I’m doing and the truth of it all.  (Ha emet)

I still have days that are filled with questions about this or that but my emuna is strong.  I know I am doing what I was created to do in life and I will continue to learn and grow in this new life.  

I was asked by a friends, “what was the hardest part of this joinery”?  I would have to say, learning Hebrew. It took all my time.  Second would be learning all the new concepts and understanding that are within Judaism.  It is not like Christian worship at all.  There is a lot of emotion in Christian worship.  Judaism is about learning, living, and understand what and who Hashem is and what He wants you to do with your life.  

If I had to pick what was most meaningful and important for me in this joinery, it would be learning and understanding Maimondies’ Principles. Those 13 principles are life.  They are the fundamentals of Jewish faith. To know and accept all that they contain.  Believing in one G-d.  This belief is with perfect faith.  You can never really understand this just by studying on your own.  Knowing that He is the Creator and Ruler of all things.  He, alone, make all things.  He is One and there. Is no unity that is in any way like His.  He is without a body.  Physical concepts do not apply to Him.  He is first and last. All the words of our prophets are true. The prophecy of Moses is absolutely true.  The Torah was given to Moses and it is what we have today.  It will NEVER be changed.  G-d knows ever deed of man and his thoughts.  That He rewards those who keep His commands, and punishes those who transgress them.  I believe with perfect faith the coming of the Messiah.  I believe with perfect faith that the dead will be brought back to life when G-d wills it to happen.  

This is what I have come to know and have faith in.  There is no other. In just 10 days, I will be connect to my family in a way I’ve never known before.  My soul will be free to fly.  

Mung Bean Hummus

I’ve had a bag of Mung Beans sitting around for a while.  I was thinking with Shabbat coming on and me loving Hummus, why not make some hummus with them.  The issue was, I have never done it before.  So, like with any amateur cook, I searched the internet and came across this recipe.  http://www.101cookbooks.com/archives/mung-bean-hummus-recipe.html


So here is what I did with a few variation, (of course).   Visit the page to get full recipe.


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At the end I added some Olive Oil, and Salsa.  It takes so good.  Not going to shelving your chickpeas, but still a nice change.  Hope you enjoy!

Sabbath Dinner 8/3/13

Every Friday morning I am super excited!  Sabbath is coming!  Then, the reality of cooking and cleaning hits me…..:(

I start cleaning around 6 am Friday morning and cooking around 10 am.  Throughout the day, I cook and clean.  It takes a while to get all the work done.  Changing beds, cleaning bathrooms, sweeping and mopping all the floors and cooking two complete three course meals.  Whew, getting tried just thinking about it all.

Although it is a lot of work, I enjoy doing it and look forward to it each week.  Sadness comes when I realize that Sabbath is ending…..:(

This weeks menu was special for me.  I cooked some of the food from my childhood and it reminded me of cooking with my mom in the kitchen on Fridays.  There are things we all have that bring back memories of time past.  It can be a smell, a show, or something as simple as sitting in the backyard.  Memories are a wonderful gift we have from our Creator.  Some are good some are not but it is those good ones that brings joy to our heart.  I often remember baking bread with my mom and her allowing me to knead the dough.

This week I made some of the most special, fantastic food ever!

Pizza with Asparagus.  I never liked eating asparagus so my mom found ways to incorporate it into our food.  She would pair it with something that I loved so that I would eat it.  This pizza has no sauce.  I put olive oil infused with garlic and asparagus with kosher salt and chives and feta cheese.

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I made tuna salad

2 cans albacore tuna in water

1 handful shredded carrots

1 celery stick, diced small

1 handful golden raisins

1/3 cup mayo more if needed)

1 tbsp mustard

juice of 1/2 lemon

salt and pepper to taste









This so so good.  We loved it.  Adding the raisins was new for me but it really made the flavors come alive.

Roasted garlic hummus.  with Townhouse Flat-bread crisps.









This was really simple to make.  1 can chickpeas, 1 head of roasted garlic, 1/4 cup EVO, juice of 1 lemon and salt and pepper to taste.

I also made Curry Mock Scallops & Cilantro Rice

It was the highlight of the meal Sabbath.  This rice was light and refreshing.  I used vegetarian scallops (they really tasted good).  curry powder, salt and pepper, butter, rice, cilantro, and lemon juice.  You must try this wonderful dish in your meal.  It was delicious.

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I made a few other things but did not take pictures of.  Silly me, time was getting away from me and needed to get done.

I had a lot of Blueberries and Peaches that I did not want to go to waste so I made a wonderful crumble with them.

Blueberry Peach Crumble

2 cups blueberries, 2 1/2 cups peeled peaches about 6 peaches, 1 tbsp lemon juice, 1tsp lemon zest, 1/4 tsp vanilla extract, 1/2 granulated sugar, 1/4 cup all-purpose flour.  for the topping 1/2 cup flour, oats, 1/3 cup brown sugar, 1/4 cup granulated sugar, 1/2 tsp salt 1 tsp ground cinnamon, and 6 tbsp cold butter diced.


Took this while it was still in the oven. Time was running out.










Hope you Sabbath was as much joy as mine was.



I often feel like I am working overtime on Fridays.  This past week I did some prep cooking on Thursday and completed cooking and cleaning on Friday.  Yet, with all my efforts I was still very tried by the time the sunset.  Never-the-less, Shabbos was wonderful.

I’ve seen video’s on The Joy Of Kosher were Jamie Geller and her husband make a wonderful stew called Cholent.  It is filled with meat.  It looked so good I wanted to try it.  So this Shabbos we enjoyed my version of this stew.  I did it a bit different from her because I don’t eat meat.  🙂


Here is what I put in mine:

Three small potatoes

half of onion

Veggie meat (kosher)


red beans (handful)

barley (handful)

Vegetarian style seasoning (to your liking)

Smoked Paprika (to cover the seasoning)

It was so good.  I will make this almost every Shabbos.  My husband and son devoured it.

I also made Challah (no big surprise there)  hahaha

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I made a few other things but my Eggplant really was the big finisher for the meal.

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All in all we had a wonderful Shabbos and look forward to the next one.  I’ve already started on my menu for next Shabbos and I’ll be shopping on Wednesday and prepping my veggies on that day.  I plan to have all my work done by Friday so all I have to do is cook the food and make the Challah and clean.  It should be another wonderful Shabbos.  My your week be filled with joy, love, and peace.