A Day In My Life (Studying)

I spend a lot of my time studying.  It seems all I really have time for most days.  I go to class, study, go to another class, study, study while I eat, study, study, study, and sleep……Start all over…..

 

One of the best place for me to study is the library at school.  I have a place I go to most.

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Then I love to just have my coffee and…….hahahaha

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Sometimes when I am outside I like to walk and read my books…..gota be careful that I don’t walk into someone, hahahahaha

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Another thing I like is how beautiful my school looks this time of year.

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So at the end of the day, when I’m not home I study at school.

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It helps when the parking lot is not full, hahahahahaha

 

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Weight update #2

Well, it has been a while since my last update but let me say for the first time I am feeling good.  I met with a Nutritionist who was able to give me some really good tips on how to do this without feeling as if I am being deprived.

I am walking 2 miles a day

I do step aerobics in my backyard on my back step.  (no cost on my budget) 🙂

I also eat small snack like meals throughout the day.  This keeps me from over eating.  I have a granola bar for breakfast, a lite salad for lunch and banana for snack, another granola bar, and a very light dinner.  This is working for me because I feel as if I am eating too much.  Oh yeah, I snack on trail mix if I feel a need to eat.

I have lost some weight but it is more in inches than in pounds but it is all good for me.   I love watching my dress size go down.

Being back in school has also helped me a lot.  I don’t have time to eat and I’m not sitting around with nothing to do and I don’t watch TV, there’s no time.  🙂

I’m feeling much happier and I have more energy.  This is a win win for me 🙂  I’m still juicing but not as much as I was, I don’t have the time.  But, I love my juice when I can get one in.

 

School

I was not sure if I should even post this topic.  Spring semester is over and my grades weren’t all that good.  I took 5 classes and I got 1 A 2 B 1 C and yes, 1F.  I am heartbroken and so upset with myself.

I have all these thoughts going through my mind.  Should I have dropped the class when I knew I was not doing as well as I could in it?  Did I not put in enough time for the class?  An endless list of question flowing through my mind.  My husband is no help.  All he says is “you did not do so bad”, ” I understand you are hurt but it is not as bad as it seems”.  What the fudge……..I GOT A FREAKING F.  How could that get any worst, oh wait, I know.  I could have gotten 2.

The teacher at the beginning of class, like 3 weeks in, told me I was not going to pass his class.  No matter what.  I just need to sleep.  Now my head is hurting.  Good night all.

A Trip to Whole Foods

I went grocery shopping the other day and spent $68.00 on some veggies.  I also got a juice while I was there.  It was not good at all.  I tried something new and it really turned out bad.  I paid $6.00 for the 16oz juice and throw it in the trash.  What a waste.  I’ve been in a slump for a few weeks now and can’t seem to pull myself out.  Yesterday was the worst of all, I got pizza, again.  It seems when I am down it is what I do, eat to feel better but it only makes me feel worst.  I really need help.

I thought I would have some support but alas, I am in this alone.  Each day I try to motivate myself but I fail…….What will it take for me to see that I am killing myself with food?  I enjoy juicing but I feel a lack in having something to chew.  I know I need to stick with this in order for it to stick but I just don’t know how to make that happen.

The veggies I got from Whole Foods did not motivate me to juice yet.  It is 5:35 in the morning and I should go down and make my morning drink but I am not feeling up to it.  I am also not drinking water like I should and working out is a joke.  I was playing racquet ball for a few days while I visited my husband but since being home, I’ve not done anything.  I am packing and preparing to move so maybe that is causing me to feel some anxiety.  I have checked each day for my final grades but they have not posted yet.  I plan on checking later today to see how bad I did.  I just don’t have the positive things in my life to motivate me right now.

School

Well, I don’t talk much about being in Nursing School.  It is in fact a large part of my life.  We were blessed to get out of class early today and I was so super happy.

I  will be applying to the program this fall.  This semester will be the completion of all my prerequisite.  YAY!

I am looking at a few schools right now and will start applying next week.  Pray I get in one.

I will keep you posted on what it is like and how hard it is being in the program.  I am super excited about finally being able to apply.  This has been a long and hard road for me.  But, I did and I am ready to move on to the next part.

How It All Came About…..

You think over the course of your life you will become stable once you reach the age of 30, may be you will may be you want.  I didn’t.  My husband joined the Army after we were married for 5 years.  There was no indication that we were moving in that direction prior to this change.  In fact, I did not know he even wanted to join.  Let me start from the beginning…..
Our lives were not moving in the direction we would have liked.  We had very little money and the bills were coming in.  My husband was playing at church on Saturday and Sunday and being paid to do so. In spite of all the money he made, we still could not keep our bills paid on time.  In fact, it seemed we would lose our home.  I wanted to go to school so we moved to Tennessee.  I enrolled in the Nursing program and my husband worked as a musician.  He was making much less and we were without a home.  We lived in a long-term stay hotel.  God blessed us with a home.  We moved in Feb. 2008.  I was so excited but afraid.  How would we meet the payment each month.  One day I asked my husband if he would like to revisit the Military life.  Ok let me back up.  You need to know why I asked this question.

Here is the story my husband shared with me.

I had long wanted to be in the Navy, where, as the Navy says, I could “Accelerate my life”, and I even had a chance to enlist, but I didn’t do so at the time.  My wife teased me about ‘chickening out’, but I knew the real story.  I frequently talked about it, and what it would be like to be a military family.  One day, she asked me the question, “What do you think about joining the Navy?”and it was like the dream was reawakened within me.  We pursued it with full vigor.  However, the Navy seemed to be dragging its feet after a whole month of persistent contact, so we checked out the Army.  Within a week we were on our way.  By the grace of God, I sneaked in.  I signed up 4 days before the cutoff age for enlistment came back down from 42 to 35.  We were so happy.

I knew it would be physically demanding, so I worked on my PT before going.  Even though it was almost half-hearted on my part, my wife made sure she reminded me daily to work on it.  She was a taskmaster cracking the whip at times.  But she was right in making me do what I had to do, and I thank her for it.   I wasn’t prepared enough, especially at my age.  The part I hated most was running.  I discovered how out of shape I had become, knowing that I wasn’t that bad off when I was younger.  She even made me learn the Soldier’s Creed:
I am an American Soldier. I am a Warrior and a member of a team.
I serve the people of the United States and live the Army Values.
I will always place the mission first.
I will never accept defeat.
I will never quit.
I will never leave a fallen comrade.
I am disciplined, physically and mentally tough, trained and proficient in
my warrior tasks and drills. I always maintain my arms, my equipment and myself.
I am an expert and I am a professional.
I stand ready to deploy, engage, and destroy the enemies of the United
States of America in close combat.
I am a guardian of freedom and the American way of life.
I am an American Soldier.
The day came when I went to MEPS for the last time (I had been several times), and I was excited.  I would be going to swear in on that day.  My wife made sure she was there to see it.  We went into a room and Captain Williams, USMC, performed the ceremony. 
“I, (NAME), do solemnly swear (or affirm) that I will
support and defend the Constitution of the United States
against all enemies, foreign and domestic; that I will bear
true faith and allegiance to the same; and that I will obey
the orders of the President of the United States and the
orders of the officers appointed over me, according to
regulations and the Uniform Code of Military Justice.
So help me God.”
We recruits raised our right hand and entered into that special group of individuals called the United States Military forever.  Nobody was more happy than my wife.  We took pictures before, during, and after the ceremony.  Then came the waiting.  We waited until May 23, which is when I actually went to the MEPS for the last time.  That was the day we boarded the shuttle bus to the airport.  My wife met us at the airport and I kissed her goodbye.  I watched as she walked away.  I was sad and excited all at once.  I knew that after that day, our lives would be changed forever. 
I flew American Airlines.  One of my battle buddies from MEPS flew with me on American and actually wound up in my company.  Another one of my battle buddies flew another airline, but also wound up with me in my company—my platoon, even!  We first landed in Washington, DC Reagan National Airport for a stopover.  We almost got left by the transfer plane!  Fortunately, we were able to go straight to the front of the line and get on board.  We then landed in Saint Louis, MO.  We went to get something to eat, and found the USO downstairs in the airport.  We waited about 4 hours for our bus to come.  Finally, it came and we boarded.  We then had another 3-hour ride to Fort Leonard Wood.  We arrived about 3 a.m.  We napped for about an hour, and then the fun began.
We later got a 5 minute phone call to our loved ones to tell them we have arrived.  Again I was sad, yet excited.  This was it.  I was on my way to becoming a US soldier.  I told my wife I was appreciative of her reawakening the dream within me, for it had died.  Now, I was on my way.  11 weeks later, I was, as the Army says, “Army strong”.  Hooah!
And so it was, we are a Army family now.  I am excited to share this life with you and my life as a Nurse (once I become one) hahahaha
Over the next few years, I will share my life in Nursing School, being an Army Wife and becoming a Physician Assistant.  I hope you enjoy this adventure and share yours with me.  I love sharing and helping and would like to invite you to a new forum I started.  It is Christian forum.  http://www.thethreeam.com/